Friday, December 23, 2005
gone and back
it's been a while since i last posted something.
well, i must say.. life has been pretty boring after everything is done and all the housewarming is over.. there's nothing to do.. i want to go out and shop, but sean's either always too tired or just doesn't want to go.
like just last night, he said we would go parkway to do some shopping today.. but in the end.. after his friend came over in the morning and they chit-chatted while ijust stare blankly into the tv screen, he said we should go for lunch. so obviously i was happy! then i said
let's go parkway! then he dropped the bomb..
i'm too tired. let's just go and eat. so yes, here i am at home, all alone while he's sleeping, on another boring boring FRIDAY afternoon... he gotta go back to school next week for 2 FULL DAYS. WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TO DO!? argh.
i'm upset, disappointed and angry.
but i'm not allowed to be any of those, cos if i am, he'll just say that i'm selfish cos he's been busy (with what i don't know) and that he did a lot of things and he want to just rest.
forget it. i think sooner or later i'll just go numb - like he said he would to my endless getting pissed off. argh! whatever.
WHY CAN'T HE BE THE FUN GUY I USED TO KNOW!? and they say girls are the ones that changed after marriage... bullshit.
5:16 PM
