Monday, March 06, 2006
just me and my imagination
i'm like so totally into this book,
P.S. I Love You that i'm just imagining what life would be like to be without sean.
the book is basically about this woman, Holly, who lost her husband, Gerry, a few months before she turned 30. the both of them were like each others best friends, lovers and soulmates.
then i thought about what would happen to me, should something happen to sean! i think i'll be exactly like how Holly reacted in the book! lost, dejected, hardened, sad, vulnerable etc.
this morning, i woke up, all alone in bed. nope, nothing has happened to sean, he just went off for work while i slept in since i was on holiday (yippee!) but the feeling of waking up alone is just so.. WRONG. it still feels best when i get up, with his arms wrapped around me and i feel so protected AND BLESSED! =)
so, the ever-so-imaginative me started to drift off into thoughts, while lying in bed, of sean not being around anymore. i started feeling sad, depressed and moody. honestly, i don't think i'll be able to move on should i be left all alone here. it would probably take me ages, maybe never! and coming from a person who dislike people who can't move on.. a bit of the erm, ironic, isn't it? haha.
anyways, reading the book, it has made me realise that i should treasure baby more and
never, ever take him for granted. like expect him to do this or that, or expect him to give me this or that etc. i should just do whatever i wanted to be done, and let him do whatever he want and also do what we like together! i should also hug him, kiss him, make love to him (that doesn't just limits to sex.) and LOVE HIM. he is afterall, my
husband. hehe.
5:21 PM
