Sunday, July 30, 2006
like, finally
i FINALLY finished choosing all my wedding gowns and evening gowns. we even chosed what type of traditional costumes to wear for the photoshoot! VICTORIAN and JAPANESE! haha.
i'm also gonna wear the traditional chinese costume (the
kua) but i'm SO not going to go take studio photos for that. haha! i'll just take some on the actual day.
haha.
sean picked his outfits in one session, 2 outfits, in less than 30 minutes! while i took 2 sessions, each lasting more than an hour an a half and almost the entire collection of their bridal gowns! haha!
now! i'm looking forward to wear all the outfits that has been adjusted to MY size. haha. and i must say, i'm really a small bride. haha. all the gowns that i've tried all mostly too big for me!!
ok. just waiting for the gowns to be altered, then go for another fitting. and then! PHOTOSHOOT!
9:09 PM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
two lovelies together
12:08 AM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
princess Paris
WE GOT OUR PUPPY TODAY!!
think that's all i need to say!
12:29 AM
Monday, July 17, 2006
making my dream come true
my baby has revealed to me recently that he is all along for a dog in our family. hehe. YAY! he just thought that maybe i wasn't ready. hehe.
as for the baby, well.. i had a dream recently about us having a baby girl (with a name! but i'm not telling!) and he sounded really thrilled when i was talking about it. but i know one thing's for sure, babies won't be any time soon, definitely have to wait until at least nearing the end of 3rd year. haha.
right now! i want to get the dog that i dreamt of! hehe.
p.s. yes, i've had dreams of us having a dog and a baby girl. oh! how blessed i would be if it would all come true! :)
9:41 PM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
silence is appreciated
all the talk has got me feeling that i'm incapable of looking after someone/thing, and i'm nothing but a dependent.
people telling me not to get this, not to get that with reasons like i have simply no time, no energy, no ability for it.. it's just getting to me.
one whole year, especially after honey passed away, i've had people telling me all these crap.
and now, this feeling that i'm having is making me not want to have anymore pets, no matter how much i yearn to have a pet puppy.
this feeling is also making me not want to ever have a child, regardless of how much i'd love to have my own children.
talking to him about pets is like storytelling. nothing appears to help anything.
talking to him about children don't seem feasible or realistic. not now, not ever.
why is that i try to give whatever i can, but nothing seems to be reciprocrated?
why is that i'm always the one that has to change, while everyone else can remain the way they are?
why is that i have never ever been deemed right and always in the wrong, and on top of that, the one that is the bad influence? (for pete's sake! i don't even drink, club, smoke or do drugs! by the way, i'm always at home, rotting.)
i am so sick and tired. but even if i cried till my tears run dry or my eyes go blind, nothing will change. because this is how things have always been.
10:04 PM
