one love, one lifetime

Friday, August 11, 2006

a heart to heart alone

i seriously don't know why, completely don't understand why..

why is it that telling you something i feel about you makes you feel weird. makes you feel funny. why is it that you're never ever serious when i'm trying to tell you something personal, be it about you or me or our future together. it makes me feel stupid, like the world's greatest joke to be alive, whenever you answer me with something that's suppose to be goddamn funny.

you said that you also didn't like making eye contact. i'm your wife! i really don't understand anything now.

how is it that one person who is so insecure can give me a sense of security up till now, when everything's said.

i don't know who to talk to. i don't know who to turn to. i used to know, but not anymore.

i don't even know why i couldn't cry when inside my chest it feels like everything has melted, ripped and smashed into pieces.

nevermind. forget it. i give up. i don't want to be bothered about it anymore.

next time, if you feel uncomfortable to be with me, just tell me. i'll back off and pull away.

p.s. i don't even know by telling you that i'll be less personal, less intense and less everything even makes any sense to a married couple.

11:27 AM

the blessed one

been adored and cared for since 17th July 1987
was found, loved and protected for since 24th July 2004
blissfully married at the tender age of 18

currently enjoys reading thick novels (that's a novelty. haha!)
simply adore these novels

Red Sky in the Morning . The Grass is Singing . Sing to the Dawn
Husbands . The Ivy Chronicles . Just Friends . Still Thinking of You
P.S. I Love You . The Other Women's Shoes . Babyville

when i think of us, i couldn't help but smile
we've gone through so much to be where we are now
i'm glad that together as one, we stood strong
your endless love and being here, braved us through the storm
no one has ever been close to making me tear
but when you came along, i see them appear
it is not tears of sadness that flow down my eyes
it is being able to love and have the love returned that made me cry
lying in your arms and hearing you speak
never fails to make me laugh and my heart skip a beat
being with you makes me want to stop time
to live and hold that moment forever in my mind
time may seem to pass quickly when we're having fun
but time has given us just enough to get things done
time may also seem to pass us slowly by
but our love for each other appear to be for eternal life